i have decided to take a hot shower and then jump into bed, as my contacts are killing my eyes, and everything has started to blur. well, i haven't really been in a dry, air-conditioned environment, in addition to concentrating extra hard for a 20 min drive to CGH to prevent any accidents.

there were two horrible drivers who almost banged into me today, and thankfully with a loud BEEP of my car horn, they swerved back into their respective lanes. like seriously, can you guys open your eyes or something? these are the ppl i look out for, and dry my eyes out for.

anw, a random note, im starting to get that feeling of a wall again. i seriously dont understand why you get so weird and a tad defensive when im around? whats wrong man seriously? my height? what i talk about? its so sad, like i dont know you anymore. i think the fact that we always go off and do our own things, and never catch up, makes us drift further and further apart. even electives, none of them you want to do with me.. like im the last on the list of prospective candidates. anyway you probably wont read this, since its probably been ages since you've last been here.. even when like me and X fight, you never take my side, cos you think its bad for dynamics. i guess im feeling a bit insecure and betrayed, since seriously, if you fought with anyone, i'll do what good friends do and support and comfort you, instead of taking the logical approach to protect myself.

at this point of the post, i thank God for my CG and for God himself, because without him, i think i will muck around and die in depression.

anw, on a happier note, i got my med elective more or less settled already, and secured myself an awesome tutor. strict but really good. and he remembers me! for the worst reasons though hahahaha. thats the only thing that made my day.

other than this, the fact that this patient rejected me TWICE despite me being all smiles and welcoming and understanding.. seriously man, i really dont understand why ppl contemplate ending their lives over minute stupid things, especially LOVE. omg my girl friend broke up with me, i must DIE. my heart is broken and i wanna run away. pls for goodness sake, leave all your friends and family behind and be irresponsible and stupid and severe your palmaris longus. we shiver in fear.

i really HATE psych.
travelling to CGH every freaking morning, is totally NOT worth it for psych. TSK.
theres nothing interesting, and everyone you talk to you have to have copious amounts of patience to get anything coherent out of them. ARGH.

i re-iterate.
H-A-T-E P-S-Y-C-H.

-cheryl~*

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