the colour purple seems to be growing on me.
so is fat.
the scariest thing in life, is change that occurs so insidiously that you dont notice. until its too late.

i recall a time when i had no problem with weight, when i was skinny no matter what i ate, when i didnt have spare tyres around my waist. the only spare tire i own should be the one in my car. a spare tyre, literally. i didnt have that much of a voracious appetite either. nowadays, i eat as if i dont care. as if nothing matters as long as the mechanoreceptors in my tummy are fulfilled - ie. stuffed-full. and i dont really think about how cake will go to my thighs, or how not chewing more than 10 times will cause me to grow fat, or how having a sweet tooth is the greatest sin any girl can commit.

its scary, i cant believe im approximately 10 kg heavier than what i was in sec 4. how much bulk can one add in 5 years? and the bulk is going to all the wrong places.

how to confess when you look like a burger?
no guy will bat an eyelid at a fatty. no wonder you treated me like i was invisible, even though i was 2 persons away from you in queue.

and its no use saying im not fat or flabby, when the numbers show it.

<-- stop deluding yourself. FAT IS NOT BEAUTY.

a diet is in order.
starting tomorrow.
im still contemplating exercise. will start with sit-ups and crunches today.

-cheryl~*

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