interpretation:

1. you're truly concerned that i will be disappointed when i dont get in because the residency system is really very tough.

2. you dont think im capable enough.

3. you dislike the fact that im so tiered to one field and so directed in my ambitions while you keep your options open (ie. you dont have a clue what you want).

considering the fact that im not really the brightest person around, nor am i the most hardworking, you maybe right that i may get disappointed because the competition is so great, but, you underestimate the power of direction, and me. Even if i am disappointed, i'll probably find some way eventually to become what i want, cos its what i want. I'm not going to settle for 2nd best, cos that would just be living a lie. Just because someone has some direction in her life, doesn't mean its the cue for you to be a wet blanket OR say that i dont know what its involved to become a surgeon. i do, thank you very much. and im very much aware about the fact that surgery is a very trying profession and it means that i might need to sacrifice parts of my life that other ppl might find impt. AGAIN, i know that. 

and you know what?

im going to be stubborn about it and just follow my dreams. no matter how many setbacks or disappointment i might face. it might be okay for you to prepare plan Bs in life, or to keep your options open, but i for one, am going to do things my way, and nothing you say will put me down.

i wonder, how come everytime its just you. 

-cheryl~*