I admire ppl who can stand up immediately after falling down, not be crushed n move on with their lives. I for one, am not like that.

After a lot of crying and ranting, I'm still feeling down n angry with such an unfair exam. Why does fairness have so much to do with anything? I can't seem to grasp the fact that I must accept the world for what it is, n move on just because life isn't fair and there is nothing we can do about it. I don't believe that there is nothing we can do about it, and I also find it really disheartening is all we can do is accept our fate.

I refuse to stand down. I think that a lot of ppl might think I am overreacting, but this is about my future career choice and I cannot stand making any blemish in that aspect. So why, should I allow someone to do that for me, specifically because he wants to prove that clinical competence is more impt than knowledge? Besides, I am clearly clinically competent comparing myself to anyone my year. Why must I attain the skills n detection rates of an o&g specialist after 6 weeks in my posting? Why despite my accurate investigations and management must you fail me? Did someone eat your breakfast this morning?

The baseline is that, I feel that I deserve much more compared to the abysmal results that you gave me. And I am going to get there, whether you like it or not.

All the comments in the world will not change the fact that you believe that the world revolves around your ideals, and that fairness is only by your exceedingly high expectations n you don't give a damn if this is impt to us. Your point is made, at my expense.

Yet due to the constraints of my situation, I have no choice but to swallow my pride and let u have yr way. And to ask you for a second chance which I believe you will happily decline, again at my expense.

Life sucks.

-Cheryl~*


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